The seats ready to be filled by 4 beautiful passengers , Nobody know who's gonna seat, It was a beautiful mystery as I was always curious to know, quite luckily, a girl sat next beside me, I was clueless in start, but as the moment passed by, my eye caught the glance, Autumn already started, but she blessed making it more special Damn, she was beautiful my body already started to feel goosebumps If she was a singer, I would love to pay so to visit her shows just to see her beautiful glimpse even I had to travel in thousands of kilometre Because I read when you're good at something, never do it for free I applied this principle in my chemistry The rickshaw started moving, Everyone was determined to reach destinations Everytime the tyre moved onto the dangerous road, Our bodies felt a touch like a love at first sight like an attraction between south and the North Pole Like a gulf of Alaska where two oceans meet but never collide My eyes played hide and seek Everytime, when I saw her in that mirror which the rickshaw had at its corners It was the 30th minute journey which I would always cherish in my life.
Okay, I saw you in that beautiful street I ain't gonna lie my desperate eyes saw your face as if you were calling me like you still can't get over me even when you're dead you want me as if you wanted a slice, a slice of my beautiful lip where you faded leaving your blood, let me tell you, it's still there, the agony of your hauntless love with your beautiful smirking face
Talk me about that day, the day where you suddenly lifted a gun aimed at your cervix and pulled that triger, yelling "good bye love" I saw your eyes right there looking at god, your final words were "Have a mercy on this soul" your curling fingers were too keen, too keen on , to make you die, Even the birds flying around were in demeanor thus, gathering around giving your precisely the guard of honour Lips were in your pain, because they couldn't handle your loss, so I cut the portion and dedicated it to our name.
I Keep Banging my head, so I can forget your painful glimpse Depression has cut my soul into your never ending fairytale When Depth of wind touches my skin, I feel it's you calling me out everytime, please leave me alone, because I'm dying and would close my eye any time Let me live, for a minute atleast, so, I could officially say my final goodbye.
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I'm walking down the streets With alcohol on my hands Each drink I take is to celebrate your unimaginable lies that you told while making eye contact damn, I was fooled by your innocence always used to think about you, how to make you happy? how to erase your pain? which you always used to come crying, hoping that I would be able to solve I close my eye, your face pops up everytime, those beautiful eyes, those beautiful whispers, those presence The way you used to see me all that was just a lie you carried with beautiful elegance.
You intoxicated fake love in my veins, knowing one day, the time will come, where once a guy, who was so loyal, so honest would hate himself by choosing you kudos to you, you got what you desired, my loyal heart couldn't hold me as of now, as he is trapped with my name written over all the disgusting sins. Therefore, in the season of summer the dark mysterious clouds hover around and shed tears in form of pain.
(possibly knowing my story)
My mind is still in yours thoughts, tho, I'm officially drunk I'm still walking, Trembling, unconscious couldn't see what's coming around Phone rings, it's my mom she is waiting for me with lots of love stored inside but she didn't knew her son was about to die because the world was too harsh for his innocent soul so at 10:45pm, nearly He took his own breathe away by writing in his own words, "sorry mom , it's time for me to go".
I whisper my love in my form of words as my hands takes the center stage with proud and with dignity to write about the beautiful journey which we had together over the years where we shared love, kiss, pain Each synonym that every relationship had, girl's named "Olivia", where I first lost my sense to breathe fanatically, the girl of my life arrived drenching my body to feel the possibility of love Thus, captivating my soul I didn't realise it was love so, mysterious me just kept it as a thought To see her beautiful glimpse, Even the naughty moon waited before it could shine.
When we first communicated, I was nervous, bit of shy I never had virtue of patience But ironically enough, I thought a lot before saying because I didn't wanted to lose her I knew this indirectly in the back of my mind but I always used to refuse it I wasn't the same guy anymore was it good or was it bad? I was not sure but we kept talking, laughing together There was something special that was gonna come somehow, I was afraid to accept it but I had too, As someone truly said, everything happens for a reason.
I start to feel bit more confident, bit more courageous, which helped me to look in her eyes I kept looking, I didn't blinked for a second Damn, that was the best thing that ever happened in my life I remember, when she smiled looking at me I kept thinking like a child, the whole day, the whole night I got immersed in my own imaginative world, where I finally realised, I am ready to start the next chapter of my life.
When was the moment you fell in love?
I'm not a good writer:) so ignore this write up, I might even delete it.
12:03, 12:04, 12:05, tick tock, tick tock, tick tock tick the sound of my favourite clock which dad gave me once to endure the meaning of responsibility into my life At that very moment, I didn't understood rather, I was more keen to sat on people's lap so, I can receive some kisses on my tiny heads because my brain was gonna fall in love with stress that would come as Iconic burden in coming years.
Though I was 6 years old, possibly naughty, cute, irritating , child and to name a few, Mom always used to be behind me, stare at me, so I don't do the annoying things but with smile and with a little courage, I always used to do it, somehow. When my mom heard complaints, she would wait, patiently, expecting me to say her the truth, but when I didn't, I used to receive some Lullabies in form of rebuked words, making me sad so, I used to cry, thinking she don't love me, thinking she hates me, but after some time, She would bring me my Favorite chocolate Thus, knowing, how to make me happy.
Along with the journey of life, I watched some beautiful glimpse, glimpse of beautiful nights, where moon used to shine like a king, like a lonely guy, who was happy irrespective of the circumstances, never ever lost his glowing touch I remember how I used to wait like the demanding child, whenever a shooting star appeared I used to pray, making my eyes closed feeling my wish would be granted that right there used to make me so happy.
the time travels, thinking, as I'm grown up man how sufficiently I evolved throughout these years from funny child to a responsible man It was like a time traveller where I myself walked in past and enrich those lovely moments which I will always be grateful for. (talking to himself, while getting awake from beautiful dream).
The room is so lonely, It needs your presence, where are you? where you went? I have no clue I can't think without you, I'm paralyzed, I no longer feel the same me, Your absence kills me from inside, It hurts me to the core, Are you listening? with whom I'm talking? or I've gone mad in your desires, In your love that meant us to be together, but you flew away, away from me, causing a betrayal, which I never expected specially from you, your face pops out everytime on my head, making me miss you more, my blood pops out telling me your name, they wanna feel touched, they wanna be loved they need you, would you come back? I promise, I won't shout at you I just want to see you I just wanna feel you for the final time, Feeling like a used soul, now, nobody is gonna accept me, My body is shivering so it can touch you it's been days, you're not here as you're the therapy to my body's pain, feeling lke you're right next to me, holding my hands, whispering in my ears, like the good old times, it's better to die now, so my soul finds you and get your love, somewhere I'll be happy because that's what I wanted when we were together.
Sitting on a chair by engulfing my own hands, lots of thought pondering making my brain die, In a state of despondency, don't know what to do? don't know where to go? memories start to haunt by taking me in flashback, Where I was a happy child where my smile was the palace of beautiful dreams, where sunrise and sunsets Brought solace to my enchanting eyes, where depth of wind brought essence to my lonely skin, Heart numbs, causing me the pain Thus, I come back to reality There is no path of light to be found, Tears start to flow down making me drown under the palace of beautiful silence I keep talking to Myself trying to calm me down for minutes, for seconds so I could think, think to escape because I'm trapped in complete darkness, making my soul anxious my body starts shivering leaving me a scar I breathe but feels like I'm not breathing so, I breathe again My neck starts to dry eventually realise there is no water around and I start to cry more, I kneel down, I start to pray desperately whispering loudly , " please help me," but no one listens, days pass but there is no hope still around I start to feel weak now my body gave up and so are my desires which I dreamt since the day I was born it will only be in my dreams, as I can't fulfill them in reality.
Saw the night freezing in cold, it's been days without feeling you, I'm gone back to the old ways once again or it's just a matter of another coincidence? oh girl, you tell me because my brain's paralyzed Thus, can't able to think right now Take my body so it can get your love He needs you so you can purify and wipe it clean so I can return to the old lovable times.
Give me your hand, so I fall in love again, because you know I'm the best, when I'm with you, why you can't be here?. just tell me the reason Because I feel in fear If something happened to you, I would never forgive myself it's just the way it's meant to be I can't change anything about you it's just my heart which beats too much for you, and I won't stop it, even though I had too, if you loved me, why would you ever leave me? I miss you at every moment of my time, specially when you flew and never came back, without seeing me, That did numb me, I never told you so, you were just a happy princess smiling all the time How could I hurt you at that very moment of time?
Come back for last time, so I can die in your open arms, Thus, I can lay my head and close my eyes, It would be the perfect moment for me to build my paradise, your hands would engulf all the pain, at my final stages of life, I would tell you, how much you mean to me, you would smile looking at me too, it will be the perfect wish I would hope when I'm gone far away, Therefore, you also would be with your guy I promise I would still protect you, you will never feel alone Even though when I'm gone.