Dear stranger!! Lately i saw you at war with yourself, shielding your innocence from the world slowly gasping at the empty sky hoping to steal a skin of darkness to hide your twinkling eyes, i saw you lost somewhere slowly drifting into a world of melancholy silence , i saw you drenching every inch of your soul in ruthless storms of anxiety and you know what hurts me more, the moment someone shook your shoulder and sabotaged the shield of solace with swords of questions like" are you fine " , i saw you holding on to a hoax smile, flinching hard on your nerves gradually gulping all your stories and chasing lies and endless lies , i saw you camouflaging all your crystal tears beneath the tag of everything's fine.!!
Everything is fine... Well really take a pause and ask yourself, you keep on repeating this over and over again but at days you feel like a piece of shit isn't it ? I see you lying on the bed staring at lifeless ceiling, scratching your head struggling with life choices, i see you choking your face with your wet pillow , at times you don't know who you are and see i understand the pressure of keeping up with demands of so called perfect life you expect of yourself. And i won't be surprised if today you claim to find your peace in chaos, that mere breathing not living a life seems all normal to you, i won't be surprised if today anxiety and depression are paying you regular visits and guess what you are no longer annoyed with their existence and it won't be too much if i say hey there i relate with you okk!!
But the real question here arises is how long.. how long you gonna hold on to myths of you're stong, oh ya mature enough to handle it all, how long would you consider accepting pain and asking for help a sign of weakness, how long will you demolish your desires behind lock doors.. Just tell me how long?? Is grief not allowed when you have experienced a loss ? Yes it is if you ever feel down and feel like crying just do so, for i know you are strong and sharing your stories and suffering makes you even stronger, you weren't born with a heartbreak surely you won't die with one so tell me why to live with it? The first step towards curing any illness is to accept you need help, you need treatment until you yourself choose to end this pain nobody can pull you out from that dirt.
Life's too short to let past dominate you sometimes you gotta forgive but hey hey never forget.. By forgiving you acknowledge the pain, their mistakes, you analyze how life tested you and you survived it all but simply forgetting and move on is not my type, i guess not even yours !! So express your emotions before its too late, find love give before its gone, trust the process you might think nobody can fix your broken heart but some prayers are powerful magical and somebody out there is praying for you!! Heal yourself take your time...
Accept, allow, embrace, evolve ~sending you all peace.