You made my heart skip a beat the night you dedicated this song to me. It was another normal night where we were discussing our favourite songs. You sent me short clips of your favourite songs and I thought Soniyo song was one of them but suddenly you texted this song is for me. I couldn't believe my eyes. But you keep on saying that each and every single word is for me. You wrote in bold letters that EVERY DAMN WORD IS FOR ME. And I was like what should I say now. You made me speechless. But after a few minutes of our conversation when I said I don't love you, you said that the song is for your woman. How can you dedicate this song to someone whose love changes within a minute. Then I became sad and suddenly you said I am your woman. My eyes lit up after reading this. My lips curved into a smile, a smile whose reason was only you.
//Soniyo O soniyo
Tumhe Dekhta hoon to sochta hoon bas yahi
Tum jo mera saath do
Sare gam bhula ke
Jee lu muskuraake zindagi//
Then you said this is not just a song for you. These are your emotions and this is what you actually feel for me. This is what you actually mean to me. And you said whenever I listen to this song I have to imagine that you are singing in front of me, for me. I instantly searched for that song and surprisingly it was the first song in my playlist. I played it and listened to it on loop. With each and every line my heart beats faster and faster. I actually felt that you and I were dancing to this song.
//Tu dede mera saath tham le haath
Chahe jo bhi ho baat
Tu bas de de mera saath
Tu dede mera saath tham le haath
Chahe jo bhi ho baat
Tu bas de de mera saath//
It was really surprising that you wanted me to be by your side despite my irritating behaviour. But you said only I can irritate you and you love to get irritated by me. My heart melted and cheeks blushed. I asked my universe," Are you the one for me ?" How could someone be so dumb, decent and innocent all the three at the same time? How could a guy who had never talked to any girl before fall for me? Deep inside I knew that you are a pure soul who deserves everything in this entire universe. But I wasn't sure whether I deserve you or not. Everytime I say I don't deserve you, you get angry. Everytime I doubt whether we will be together or not, something happens which draws me closer to you. Everytime I ask the universe for signs, it shows me butterflies and angel numbers. Everytime I think about you it feels right.
I'd like to wish a very happy birthday and many returns to Charudatta sir of @odysseus and @odysseus_2!! Thank you for your wonderful ongoing support throughout this amazing community/family of writers and thank you for sharing your sensational literary contributions. Many blessings, continued good health, and a joyful day of celebrations to you!
Wanted to say a quick hello, amongst all the endless unpacking! I hope all are well, and that each of you are enjoying a great start to this new year. I'm looking forward to catching up with everyone's work as soon as we get the house settled. At the moment, all I can see are brown cardboard boxes from wall to wall, so I'd best get back at it. Hope to read you soon! ♀️
P.S. Regarding the picture, pretty much me at the moment, but not me; and minus the fancy dress, the blonde hair, and the alcohol.
Today it's been raining since 3 o' clock in the morning, and the sun never made it to my frosted window. It's the month of January, a preordained winter sits on my bones willing to live longer than this apparent halt in time, but they say winter is cruel and I can't tell otherwise.
The sound of rubber wheels hissing over the wet road, rainwater splashing on cars like blanched blood shed in a timeless rebellion with the sky, everything seems to be following some ritual of the past where none but winter survives.
It's quiet at my place today. With less people, there's less noise and more silence. It's still raining outside. I keep my window closed; there maybe an incursion anytime, they say and I believe. Winter is cruel, and my bones aren't resilient to time.
It's raining here in my city, I can sense the blur glasses smirking at my innocence, from above the ceiling I could hear lizards yelling at me, for disturbing their privacy. I didn't plan to stare at the same thing for hours it just happens to me naturally, in between those hours, I see you in front of me smiling and screaming, you're dumb. I would want to scream back but, for a fact. I know that I'm as dumb as you think.
You have saved me from all the disasters which I chose for myself, but you couldn't protect me from yourself. There's this fire in you which burns my skin when I think of us together, the despair in me spreads wider. I feel your deep gaze upon me which makes me numb for a second and then emotions flow through my veins, towards your door. You hear my head screaming your name, don't you?
Every so often I think of you and me, being together, that's when the universe tricks. The entire world goes against my desire, as I listen to soft drizzle singing the love songs, our heartbeats unite, but our existence fades away. We disappear from each other's sight, but our soul is visible to each other, isn't it?