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  • blue_lemon_writes 5d

    Dear love,You are simply one of a kind and one in a million. I have never had a reason to regret saying yes to you five months ago, and I just want to say thanks for being the most amazing partner ever. I love you afresh today, now and forever.
    These few words are not enough to tell you how much I love you, but still sending you my true feelings through this letter. The day I met you, I thought you are also just like any other guy, but you proved me wrong, you made me believe in the phrase “There are no perfect men, but one man is perfect for you.” After meeting you, I never felt the need to look at another man, as you made me feel complete and safe. I am glad that it did not work out with any other guy as it did with you.
    I was hopelessly romantic, waiting for the Prince Charming to sweep me off my feet. The world said I was living in a fantasy until you came along. Now the same world talks about how lucky I am. I can never forget the day we met, I was smitten and head-over-heels for you. I couldn’t stop rambling about how innocent, cute and dumb you were, to my universe (god). I love you to the moon and back.
    You are quiet, I am talkative.You are calm, I am an overthinker. You like sunrise, while I enjoy sunsets. They say opposites attract; I feel it is not entirely true. Initially, we might get attracted to each other because of our uniqueness, but what made us survive as a couple is our choice to love each other every single day.
    Thank you for loving me unconditionally. I hope we spend many more fantastic years together embracing each other’s typical tastes and proudly be called as perfect couple.

    Your weird wife-to-be ❤️

  • blue_lemon_writes 6w

    If you want to live happily forever then you have to let go of all the attachments and expectations. Because the more you try to hold onto something the more it will slip away. The more you chase the more it will run away. If someone says that he or she loves you then don't make that person your whole world because people do change within a blink of an eye. Never expect the same love from people which you give to them. Not everyone has a heart of gold like yours. I know letting go of them isn't easy but it's really necessary for self growth. You can't stay there forever despite knowing that they don't care about you and your needs. Their words don't match their actions and they gaslight you everytime. You need to know that it's high time to focus on yourself. You just have to let go of all desperation and you need to divert your mind. You need to realize that you too deserve every single happiness of this entire universe. Please know your worth. You are important and so are your emotions. Don't waste them on people who pretend that they care but actually they don't give a f*ck. I know you keep on forgiving them because you love them so much but please take care of your self respect too. If they are constantly ignoring you for no reason then don't disturb them again and again. Once you will start moving away from them, they will realise your importance. Once you start loving yourself the way you love them, they start valuing you and your time. They will definitely realise their mistake and will know your worth. Until then please keep going on with a smile on your face. 
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  • blue_lemon_writes 7w

    Reminder to self.

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    Dear self
    I am sorry for not treating you right. I am sorry for never paying attention to your needs. I am sorry for always sacrificing your happiness for the sake of others. I am sorry for not taking care of your mental, emotional and physical health. I am sorry for making you feel unworthy of love. I am sorry for always comparing you with others. I am sorry for not making you my priority. I am sorry for not respecting and loving you. I am sorry for criticising and devaluing you. Can you please forgive me for the last time? I promise that from this very moment only you are my priority. I will take care of your physical, mental and emotional health. You are enough. You need not to expect anything from anyone. You are love. You deserve everything. You need not to seek validation from others. Your aura is divine and magnetic which draws everyone towards you. You are the most favourite child of the universe. Your life is miraculously beautiful. Know your worth.Trust me you are the most beautiful creation of the god.
    I am sorry. Please forgive me. I love you. I thank you.
    I am sorry.Please forgive me. I love you.I thank you.
    I am sorry. Please forgive me. I love you.I thank you.
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  • blue_lemon_writes 11w

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    He: Why do you stare at me a lot?
    “ I like to admire what's mine",I replied.

  • blue_lemon_writes 13w

    Excerpt from my journal.

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    It was another usual night. I was lying on my bed, eyes wide open staring at the ceiling. Mind lost in the thoughts of despair. I opened my YouTube search for guided meditation and tried focusing on my breathing with closed eyes. But all went in vain. I couldn't concentrate on anything except my poor fate. Is there something wrong with the alignment of my stars? Why am I such a negative overthinker? Why does nobody understand that it's not in my hands to stay calm and positive? The people who showed their immense love in the beginning slowly drifted away when they saw my irritating behaviour. They still say that they do care for me and are there for me always but their actions don't match their words. They start parting their ways when they see I start expecting too much from them. Is it my fault that I am so sensitive? Is it my fault that I have trust issues? My past experiences are at fault, not me. I am tired of struggling with my thoughts. Sometimes all I want is to sleep and never wake up. But when I see my parents all I pray for my long life. Because I wanna do so much for them.  My kind heart becomes my weakness. People take me for granted when I open up my heart to them. Sometimes I think it's my negativity that makes people slowly go away. Positive affirmations, gratitude journal, mindfulness, meditation, self love all these are tools with which I can manifest my desired life. But still it's really difficult to change the old conditioning of the subconscious mind. But it's not impossible. I have to do this. Universe has my back. Lord Shiva is with me. All angels' blessings are with me. With the law of attraction and self love I can change my entire life. I am a magnet who attracts love, happiness and positivity. Thank you Universe.
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  • blue_lemon_writes 14w

    But my love for him remains constant.

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    When my favourite person doesn't reply me on time, the temperature of my overthinking increases which decreases the relaxation time of my patience and the resistivity of my trust issues increases.
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  • blue_lemon_writes 16w

    Do u believe in law of attraction?

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    “When we surrender, we allow the universe to work its magic; we say yes to infinite possibilities; we trust that things will work out as they are meant to; and we give ourselves permission to let go of the outcome.

  • blue_lemon_writes 16w

    Rant.

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    Sometimes it becomes so difficult to decipher your feelings. The anxiety crawls up your head late at night and overthinking starts singing lullabies in your ears. Your self assumptions dancing inside your chest and pulling the wrong chords of your heart. They trick both your mind and heart, making you believe all those lies that don't even exist. And when confusion joins them the demons which are resting peacefully under your bed wake up and start patting your head. The negativity starts biting you at places where it hurts the most and the dilemmas add fuel to the fire by licking it off. You don't know where to go and whom to talk to in order to get rid of this exasperation. So you clutch your pillow, bury your face and yell. You yell until these demons become deaf with your screams. You cry until your tears soaked eyes become dry.  You cry until your mind gets exhausted and unable to think anything. You cry until you get the clear picture of what to do next. 
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  • blue_lemon_writes 17w

    //Baby, Come, stand by my side

    Come n be my guide in life

    O i will be what you want me to be

    I will give all my love in whole of my life.//


    You made my heart skip a beat the night you dedicated this song to me. It was another normal night where we were discussing our favourite songs. You sent me short clips of your favourite songs and I thought Soniyo song was one of them but suddenly you texted this song is for me. I couldn't believe my eyes. But you keep on saying that each and every single word is for me. You wrote in bold letters that EVERY DAMN WORD IS FOR ME. And I was like what should I say now. You made me speechless. But after a few minutes of our conversation when I said I don't love you,  you said that the song is for your woman. How can you dedicate this song to someone whose love changes within a minute. Then I became sad and suddenly you said I am your woman. My eyes lit up after reading this. My lips curved into a smile, a smile whose reason was only you. 


    //Soniyo O soniyo

    Tumhe Dekhta hoon to sochta hoon bas yahi

    Tum jo mera saath do

    Sare gam bhula ke

    Jee lu muskuraake zindagi//


    Then you said this is not just a song for you. These are your emotions and  this is what you actually feel for me. This is what you actually mean to me. And you said whenever I listen to this song I have to imagine that you are singing in front of me, for me. I instantly searched for that song and surprisingly it was the first song in my playlist. I played it  and listened to it on loop. With each and every line my heart beats faster and faster. I actually felt that you and I were dancing to this song.


    //Tu dede mera saath tham le haath

    Chahe jo bhi ho baat

    Tu bas de de mera saath

    Tu dede mera saath tham le haath

    Chahe jo bhi ho baat

    Tu bas de de mera saath//


    It was really surprising that you wanted me to be by your side despite my irritating behaviour. But you said only I can irritate you and you love to get irritated by me. My heart melted and cheeks blushed. I asked my universe," Are you the one for me ?" How could someone be so dumb, decent and innocent all the three at the same time? How could a guy who had never talked to any girl before fall for me? Deep inside I knew that you are a pure soul who deserves everything in this entire universe. But I wasn't sure whether I deserve you or not. Everytime I say I don't deserve you, you get angry. Everytime  I doubt whether we will be together or not, something happens which draws me closer to you. Everytime I ask the universe for signs, it shows me butterflies and angel numbers. Everytime I think about you it feels right. 

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  • blue_lemon_writes 17w

    An old draft.

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    Yesternight I ate all the poems that I wrote for you under a sky full of stars. The poems that were my sole companion in the times of despair are now rotting inside my gut. The poems which once made my days brighter and nights shinier are now incinerating my insides. The poems which I wrote with an immense love are now draining the last hope from me bit by bit. When I engulfed the poems last night, all the metaphors started weeping inside my mouth. Maybe they still remember the taste of our last kiss. As soon as the poems entered the oesophagus, the peristaltic movement became so violent that it almost choked my breath. Maybe the poems didn't want to die and rot. I wanted to puke but all I did was drink one litre of water straight away. I didn't let them come out of my mouth. As the poems glided down my alimentary canal and entered my stomach,I felt the same butterflies which fluttered when you held my hand for the very first time are now sobbing. The hydrochloric acid isn't enough to rot the poems inside my stomach. So I reminisced about all those memories we spent together. Then each and every cell of my body filled with rage. The rage along with pain were enough to kill every single metaphor.  I clenched my fists, banged my head against the rusty tiles of the bathroom floor. The blood started oozing out from my skull. I wrote your name with the blood on my skin and the color of my skin started fading. I could still hear the cries of my poems rotting in the fire of my rage. I could hear the metaphors calling your name and wanted to stay. The metaphors which still had hope that someone would save them unaware of the reality that they are lying in a living corpse. 

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