benny_lambchop

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Thembo who likes to write poetry and bop to music.

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  • benny_lambchop 5w

    Am I alone?
    Let's take a look at this
    I hear my perception of others perceiving me
    Sometimes I feel like a waste of space
    Someone today said to me
    I like your shoes bro
    Another said
    I wish I had hair like yours
    Art makes me happy
    But art class not so much
    I get how shapes work
    However
    Connecting them cohesively materially is beyond me
    Adding shade and texture overwhelming
    I know so many people who can
    Why can't I?
    My hands aren't wired properly
    Maybe I am just too hard on myself
    Practice could fix this potentially
    But what if it's like reading
    Where no matter how much I try
    I have errors in execution
    Words become blurry
    And I lose my place
    Like my drawings similarly turned into mush
    Trauma connected through elementary
    Possibly become a habit
    Hard to cognitively change
    I'm still wondering if I want to try

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    Creativity

    Am I alone?
    Let's take a look at this
    I hear my perception of others perceiving me
    Sometimes I feel like a waste of space
    Someone today said to me
    I like your shoes bro
    Another said
    I wish I had hair like yours
    Art makes me happy
    But art class not so much
    I get how shapes work
    However
    Connecting them cohesively materially is beyond me
    Adding shade and texture overwhelming
    I know so many people who can
    Why can't I?

  • benny_lambchop 6w

    I cannot get off
    Unless there is love in sex
    It's always been like that
    The thrill of being together
    Enthralled by visceral tactile sensations
    Pheromones blissfully sweet
    Inseparable from the thought of penetration
    Are emotions wrapped around us
    Lifting us to a higher plane
    Kisses everlasting
    Giggling ensuing
    As we roll around the bed
    Climaxing feels like Oxy
    Drenched in sweat
    Wrapped around eachother
    I could stay forever
    In the bliss of us
    .
    #love #missyou #wanttostart #wod #writersbay #writersnetwork #pod @mirakee @writersnetwork @writersofmirakee

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    Demisexuality

    I cannot get off
    Unless there is love in sex
    It's always been like that
    The thrill of being together
    Enthralled by visceral tactile sensations
    Pheromones blissfully sweet
    Inseparable from the thought of penetration
    Are emotions wrapped around us

  • benny_lambchop 6w

    Stand still
    Mathematical expressions
    Shine through every fabric of life
    Weather and astronomy
    Nature and neurology
    Math is the language of the universe
    Am I where I need to be?
    Consuming media
    Learning ideologies
    Turning my brain inside out
    I am my memories

    Walking speed
    A snake oil salesman in wolf's clothing
    Preaching his inventive grift
    How many people have died for you?
    How many more will?
    Why do we believe?
    Waking up every morning
    Hoping for better
    Receiving the same
    Pushing the boulder like Sisyphus

    Running now
    Who have I left behind?
    I'm not sure what I know
    Words are typing
    Thoughts won't slow down
    Heart pounding
    The mirror before me
    Staring back
    It's me
    .
    .
    .
    #whack #existential #wod #writersbay #writersnetwork #revelation #swag #pod @mirakee @writersnetwork @writersofmirakee

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    I am here

    Stand still
    Mathematical expressions
    Shine through every fabric of life
    Weather and astronomy
    Nature and neurology
    Math is the language of the universe
    Am I where I need to be?
    Consuming media
    Learning ideologies
    Turning my brain inside out
    I am my memories

  • benny_lambchop 7w

    I am Grateful

    I breathe
    I eat
    I think
    I sleep
    Pain is present
    But not insurmountable
    Carrying the weight of my body
    With my emotional bags packed up
    I'm an observer of everything
    A journey awaits me
    With no goal in mind
    Onward
    ©benny_lambchop

  • benny_lambchop 7w

    September 1st

    I live each day a walking husk
    Aimlessly moving through the flow of life
    Today I went to the ER
    Tomorrow I'll go to the park
    The chaos that binds our lives together
    Some are chains others are rubber bands
    There has to be something for there to be nothing
    What does this mean for my consciousness?
    Is this another illusion of perception?
    Humans forever seeking questions
    Leaving folly in the wake of no answer

  • benny_lambchop 11w

    Fluid motions
    Natural interpretations
    Concepts are ideas
    Intangible and ineffable
    Displayed out to me
    Vision connected to thought
    Body know how to move
    Word is hard
    Thought is good
    Thought feel nice
    Identity adopted from others
    Heritage unlearned
    Culture created me
    It can be different
    I am not alone
    We are breathing
    Knowledge is intangible
    We prescribe it value
    Constructed by our perception
    Blinded to the reality
    Destruction impending
    Perhaps accepted
    Death of fresh air
    Clean water
    Abundant food
    I should get out more

    #wod #writersbay #writersnetwork #pod @mirakee @writersnetwork @writersofmirakee #shrooms #psychology #original #mushrooms #darkpoetry #mypoetry #poetrynetworking #societyofpoetry #englishpoetry #poetryisntdead #urbanpoetry #naturepoetry #poetrylovers✒️ #selfpoetry #modernpoetry #poetryimages #concretepoetry #queerpoetry #soulpoetry #mentalhealthpoetry #globalpoetrycult #deeppoetry #poetryspeaks #poetrysocietry #avantgarde #weird #life #person #trans #enby #love you #thankyou #graditude

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    8/2/21

    Fluid motions
    Natural interpretations
    Concepts are ideas
    Intangible and ineffable
    Displayed out to me
    Vision connected to thought
    Body know how to move
    Word is hard
    Thought is good
    Thought feel nice
    Identity adopted from others
    Heritage unlearned
    Culture created me
    It can be different
    I am not alone
    We are breathing

  • benny_lambchop 14w

    I look in the mirror
    Who do I see?
    Brain rotted addict
    Limitless potential
    Trapped in a cycle
    Grief and depression
    Friends from beyond the grave
    Guided by lampposts
    Torches lead my destiny
    Crumpled and dismantled
    A frame malnourished
    Organs unmaintained
    Divided personality
    Who am I?
    I don't know
    I ask it everyday
    Sometimes I'm more confident
    Otherwise I'm a husk
    Do my thoughts make me who I am?
    Or do I make my thoughts?
    Time is irrelevant
    I am just a speck of dust
    Attempting to stop a tidal wave
    Death is imminent
    I am surrounded by thoughts unfinished
    Dreams untamed
    I want to find meaning in myself
    I don't know where to begin
    .
    .
    .
    #wod #writersbay #writersnetwork #pod @mirakee @writersnetwork @writersofmirakee

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    Husk

    I look in the mirror
    Who do I see?
    Brain rotted addict
    Limitless potential
    Trapped in a cycle
    Grief and depression
    Friends from beyond the grave
    Guided by lampposts
    Torches lead my destiny
    Crumpled and dismantled
    A frame malnourished
    Organs unmaintained
    Divided personality
    Who am I?
    I don't know
    I ask it everyday

  • benny_lambchop 20w

    Grit

    Hearts will start to burn
    Until they are dead inside
    Diluted and cloudy
    What once was a home
    Is charred rubble
    A fall before another rise
    Destruction brings creation
    The brush has been cleared
    A new start
    A new life
    Open to the world
    Unconstricted
    Forever changed
    Reinvented
    Spurring to breathe
    Drink and sweat
    Love and bleed
    A stubborn human is who I am
    ©benny_lambchop

  • benny_lambchop 21w

    Bizarre frameworks
    Ever shifting reality
    Maps formed
    Neural pathways
    Scrawled haphazardly
    Plink
    Nail goes in
    Traffic moves faster
    A path corrected
    The goal post moved
    To meet an ever present status quo
    Contradictions live within us
    A shifting black and white
    Ying and yang
    Without one the other lacks
    The brain is garbage
    But sure do I fetishize it
    ©benny_lambchop
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    #wod #writersbay #writersnetwork #pod @mirakee @writersnetwork @writersofmirakee #abstract #psychology #marxism

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    Brain Garbage

    Bizarre frameworks
    Ever shifting reality
    Maps formed
    Neural pathways
    Scrawled haphazardly

  • benny_lambchop 21w

    Emotions are a double edged sword

    A balance ever shifting
    Heraclitus fire
    Ever present in all reality

    To shift through the flow
    Wading in the river of time
    Is to be at peace with oneself

    Integrated within matter
    My environment is me
    The hate the torment
    The love the kindness
    All facets of my perception

    Crumbling by a chemical reaction
    Adrenaline over regulating
    A mechanism of protection
    Adopted from your teaching
    Your nurture and care

    Neural pathways convening
    On archaic reptilian structures
    Black and white always in conflict
    Preprogrammed haphazardly
    With no real direction
    ©blammers
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    #wod #writersbay #writersnetwork #pod #philosphy #existentialism #psychology @mirakee @writersnetwork @writersofmirakee

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    Emotions are a Double Edged Sword

    A balance ever shifting
    Heraclitus fire
    Ever present in all reality

    To shift through the flow
    Wading in the river of time
    Is to be at peace with oneself

    ©blammers