I saw you Dancing and screaming "It's her birthday today" Standing amongst some hundred people Running around, bursting in laughter Like a child Somewhat like a traveller going wild I remember me sitting on the ground And watching you with a huge smile on my face You grabbed my hand and asked me to dance with you But instead, I dragged you away from that crowd I remember lying down on the grass And you lying right next to me With your fingers entangled into mine, Continuously staring at the dark sky "I wish there were some more stars up in the sky. They look bored up there alone", You said. I laughed, and looked at you, Completely holding my breath Your eyes shining like the deepest hue Of aquamarine I placed my head on your shoulder And we lied there for a while. I remember us just walking Through the streets of the city In the middle of the night With you holding my hand So tight Playing with my hair Waiting for me to put up a fight I remember things getting blurry And time running like a slurry I was confused And looking around in a hurry Looking for as much as I could hold onto To remember it all Before I fall I felt your hold loosening up And you drifting away Into a world So mundane I heard a whisper As you slowly disappeared "Please don't wake up" "Don't wake up"
They say you are free To do whatever you want If only it was true 'cause now here you stand Trying to breathe in the air But breathing in chaos instead
They say you are stronger Than you know When they know Nothing about you They don't understand What you're feeling, What you've been through They tell you that they care But no one ever really sees you, For you!
They don't know That you keep yourself busy By burying your head in stories 'cause it help slow down These unbearable voices That keep you awake When you're trying to sleep And won't let you wake up In the mornin'
They say you were meant to be A doll from their dreams The one, born to fly So why do you feel suffocated All the damn time And would rather prefer dying
So why do you feel like Locked up in a coffin, A coffin of their expectations Deep down the ocean Drowning you over and over again
They say, you doubt yourself You underestimate your worth Then why does cutting yourself And bleeding to unconsciousness Sounds much easier
It's funny, how they keep telling you You are ruining your life But never really care! You make heroes Out of the survivors Searching for hope But when it's you, It hurts way more And you know, God! You know, You are just another Ticking time bomb Waiting for one last blow To give up and finally explode
You plug in your earphones And hurt your ear drums With the loud music All day To flush out the noise from your brain! You keep ignoring people Who really care 'cause you're afraid You tell them Everything's all right When you just wanna say, "I'm not okay!"