here is a broken girl, wailing against the wall, for a love that was smoke and mirrors. there is cocaine hooked on her lips and she refuses to let the pain get to her head when midnight lurks around the corner of her dark dark bedroom. with grief-stricken fingers, she knits a lie and hangs it on her door, barring people from ending up in her blood smeared haven. all she has even known is hope so she hops from her seat when she glances at the moon and breaks her limb in an attempt to cage the brightest star in the sky with her tiny hands. melancholy outmanoeuvre's her naiveness and she falls straight into the arms of her lover. it's a crime to sniff tarnishing love off a lover's sleeves and sad girl's don't do that so she pushes him away and darts back into the tiny cage that submerges her fragility as she scatters on the floor. the lights of her room flicker and she hopes to pluck a star from a sky to hang it next to her dreamcatcher so he doesn't appear in her nightmares anymore but hope is a sin she cannot barter for an unhinged obsession and she makes the same mistake of jumping from the highest floor in the building, rubbing her tears away cause there are no stars in the sky tonight and the moon doesn't show up to grieve her loss. this time when she lands in his arms, he doesn't let her push him away and pulls her closer. she is vulnerable and he is her kryptonite and he knows that she melts in the right arms so he brushes his fingers over her wounds, and she prompts him to kill her one last time before he traces his fingers down her neck and tells her how she never learns from her mistakes. it is wildering to fathom why she hates this gentleman who waves at her every time her limbs walk away from him, running into the stale corners of her mind, too big to hover over his pale lips and the lustful gaze that can make her dig her own grave. he doesn't dare to break the starstruck gaze that fills her eyes with loosely held souvenirs from the past and she once again hopes that he'd confess love but he pulls out a dagger and stabs her as he whispers I love you and she smiles as she falls on the ground 'cause she knows that it's hard to escape a love that's designed to kill.