Why is it that the things which you loved me for, is now makes you angry? I'm as always who I am. I couldn't find any changes within me. The thing which I feel different is you and your love. You never ever were like this... getting frustrated and hurt for silly doings of mine which is unintentional. I feel you got bored on me and has no interest in talking to me while you cut my call saying, "I'll talk to you after I reach home." You know we cannot talk through call once you are home. How should I take this? A positive one? Okay.. may be your phone would be out of charge..may be the noise beside you subtles my voice.. may be you don't feel free to talk around people. You should have said me the valid reason , so that I won't end up in stupidity. Ofcourse I know your love for me.. how I mean to you.. At times, heart knows the truth yet mind asks for a statement from you. A love and commitment statement, a remainder of your love for me, a soul note that's written invisibly, an asset of our bonding, a poem to be added in our love story, a memory gonna lasts forever. If I question you that you had no interest in me, It's not blaming or suspecting you. It's making my mind right, making my negative thoughts right by your consolement and love. I blabber to you cause I need you to make me calm. Because I want to cry on your shoulder and to pat on my back saying, "Don't worry..I'm all here for you till my last breath. I love you baby.." A kiss that silents my storm, my tears wells out of love, my pain turns into guilty, "I'm sorry baby..I misunderstood you..I love you more baby.."
If one says something, don't get angry or complain about their negativity. Make them relaxed, understand their wavy thoughts, and say how much you love them. If you wanna say their negativity, better say when they are okay, and in positive minds. No one is perfect, accept one as how they are. Time changes people. Don't hate one if they change. They are still your beloved.
I'm an over thinker who ends up in stupid and messy questions that's hard to untangle. My friends and loved ones sometimes finds no words to answer. My unstable mind grabs every unnecessary thoughts which in turn becomes a question and It drags some pain unknown pain along. My perplexed mind will not be quite unless I question it to someone. Some really tries to knot the answers and make it a garland of understanding as I'm matured by age but child at heart. One needs to explain a fact or statement with one or two examples to me. I fail to see the perception through what other people sees. I perceive it differently and get hurt by myself though it's not their intentions. My mind travels beyond the galaxy that remains mysterious. Why I'm born as a human being in this vast world? Why couldn't I be a matured one? Why is that people judge people? Why does everyone has different lifestyles when God loves everyone equally? Why the good souls board the above heaven when they are already in a heavenly world? Why does finding a love is a sin? Why does pain is painful both physically and mentally? Why time decides fate? Why does rhetoric questions are unanswered? Some things are left unnoticed. Pen is the only voice to these dumb rhetoric questions, though it is left unanswered, it gets a recognition. My mind is like a Rhetoric question, Expects no answers, But a realization and understanding.
My days are lying in a corner, Stoned, Crippled, and rusted. Days and Nights stretch too long, When I'm all alone without her.
I could see her everywhere, Sometimes lying beside me, Ergo, my blurred eyes betrays me That it could reflect only her Like an unquenchable mirage.
Pictures of her are my only assets, Which I cannot be happy without witnessing. I never get bored of seeing her same pics Yet I go deep and deep for everytime I leap. She is my moon and sun, Without whom my days are incomplete.
My phone would be in my hand Hoping she would text me or call me. My curiosity and patience becomes a mess And it ends up in anxiety and disappointment.
My tears couldn't stop welling Whenever I miss her. Believe this would be the last time I shed tears alone, Then, she will be along with me to wipe away my tears.
My heart understood that I should never let her go, Cause it's hard to handle a day without her. Her rememberance are my living memory, Scattered as the stars in my night sky, Waiting for her to become my constant star.
You are the one whom I think before and after my sleep. You are the one whom I think when cuddle my pillow. You are the one who is in my thoughts in day and night dreams, staying permanently in sub conscious memory. You are the one for whom I wait like a watching owl. You are the one who is behind my small curvy smiles. You are the one whose talks delights me when I feel low. You are the one whose words I love to hear. You are the one whom I can blindly fall for. You are the one whose love made my heart to crave more. You are the one whom I wish to hold into my eyes. You are the one whom I never wanted to be replaced. You are the one whom I don't want to get hurt. You are the one whom I can't miss even for a minute. You are the one whose thoughts drives me crazy. You are the one whose pics were tempted to see for hours. You are the one who flies off my boredom. You are the one whom I dream to be my future with. You are the one whose presence make me more me. You are the one whom I love with my whole heart and ready to surrender myself to you. You are the one who will always be my only one.