I'm trying to continue this letter as the previous one was incomplete and I guess even this one is not gonna be complete.. Because some emotions have no words to get expressed.. That pain only keeps us killing from inside each and every moment.. And we have no way to escape..!! You can read the previous one by clicking on the 1st hashtag above..!!
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Dear lost love,
I know you'll never get to read this, neither I'll post it to you. Still its just a short letter I felt to dedicate you. Maybe the one you knew as me was not the real me. Because you never understood or saw the real me. Or just you didn't want to.
I'm not like that to leave someone. But many things have an ignition point. And I completely lost and exhausted myself, giving you all that you wanted. Now when I look back, I'm unable to find myself. Like its completely dark and I'm lost. Lost like a small kid screaming for help, and who can't come back. I can't even recognize myself in front of the mirror. Its so much painful every single moment, that I can't put into words.
Love sucks out everything from oneself. Still I continued, but never got anything in return. I kept yearning till all my emotions died. One sided efforts are next to the feeling of trash. Sometimes I become completely heartless, even when I'm brutally shattering from inside. That's why maximum times I'm all silent. I feel good with myself in seclusion. And I started distancing myself from you, both knowingly and unknowingly. Silence, darkness and loneliness became my best friends from previously just friends. With them I love to cry my heart out and express everything through my tears. And you know the best thing, they never judge me, but provide space and calmness in return. It soothes my soul and gives me the power to get up, survive and face the world again.
Finally concluding myself, as I'm becoming out of words yet again, to describe all those I've faced. And my dear, one more thing I would like to tell you that, trust, love, care and understanding are the things which are never asked for. They're the emotions which need to be felt. But to expect something like this from you is in vain. Maybe I was unable to give you the things you wanted. So I hope you get them in future and be happy in your life. That's what I wish for.
To, someone (once who was special) It has almost been a year since we have not exchanged a single word ,yes I have deleted your phone number but you will be shocked to know that I still remember that number. It's the only number I memorized and still it's in my memory book . Still now I cry when I think of those days. Do you still remember the first day when you proposed me but I was too afraid to accept it. The days when you used to narrate me the dreams that you have dreamt of me all night and I used to listen them carefully with great interest. The way you cared about me, the way you scolded me while I used to focus more on you than my studies made me feel for you more as days passed by.
Thanks to God that day I didn't give an answer to your proposal, thanks to my inner self that I controlled my emotions and stopped myself from wasting my first three golden words on you .whenever you use to compel me to say those three words I neglected the topic saying that its might be a puppy love in my teenage years.
How beautifully you used to weave poems for me and those poems never gave me chances to think anything negative about you rather reading them I used to worship you like a holy divine.I still remember how beautifully we used to touch each other through the screen of our phones and the most interesting part of our story is that we used to dance together that also through chats and imagination. I want to live every moments once again, once more .
What went wrong that everything shattered ?.Can you point out a single mistake of mine that I had made, but I can finger out all those mistakes you had done .Although I never confessed my feelings as you did but you know that I was completely headed over heels in love with you. Those midnight calls,giggles and chatting at late night under the blanket everything now proves to be as fake as a mere dream lake. I would have never stepped back to give our love a second chance if that day you have said something, but what all you did was that you didn't say anything and remained quiet and proved that you were the devil.
I am really shivering now out of an inexpressible pain. I wish I could turn back to those days to try everything we were and we were about to become . But Lord knows how much I started feeling for you and you broke that within a wink of an eye but still I will give you a million of second chances if it meant my heart wouldn't have to be homeless anymore From, Megha (Once upon a time your's Meghabalika)
@akshu_writes is This writer new to mirakee, if want to help them grow (if want ) by following sharing liking if want to. Help newcomer's grow here as we are helped show others love forgiveness sharing helping as God's love not what you can gain by popularity or fame or likes. Poetry is spilling your soul out in pen pencil or ink or technical form. Give others platforms as you were given poets.... And show others love today as God's love, forgive another as God's forgiveness. Your times extremely short hope you'll show that now to others while you can. Everyone have good days and nights wherever you are. You all have a good day help one another here. Life's about Loving one another... (Without) expecting love back yes it hurts not to receive love back but far better to give it as God's greatest commandment to everyone... Love one another.... And forgive another of your faults. Put aside grudge's anger bitterness and pain. Listen to another so you comprehend instead of just hearing or reading words not understanding. If don't understand ask the other person what they mean. Grow with each other learn from another. Life's really short my friends I know. Your poet Brandon nagley
Why do I share all these someone asked what's it's purpose sharing all these writers with hardly any followers? Well my answer is simply to me the hidden artist's whether painters musicians, poet's in all art forms are the most beautiful and talented artist's that are hidden in the back of the room if you may say. I want them to be known bring them forward give them a stage just as many did me years ago with music I wish I was still doing and more importantly why I share these? To show you who God is. He's purely love and gods son (Yeshua, Jesus Christ) was sent to die for all mankinds sins that whoever comes to him ask Christ to save you in faith you'll be saved( romans 10:13) and to teach you all life's not material it's not hating another or unforgiving Bible says if you do not forgive one another God will not forgive you. Because gods love mercy forgiveness and pure light and Grace and as human beings we must share that with another. That's why I share these to show you who God is. LOVE! And show you life's main purpose is to love another simply. Fellow poet Brandon nagley