Your name escapes my lips in solitude as every dawn I wake up to dampen pillows thinking of a world where our "happily ever after" can live, so out of your remains I created a universe, parallel and strong where we meander about hand in hand till eternity. Where I find you loving me in ways unseen I feel you touching me in ways unknown, Where I see you stick to me for all dark days and terrible nights, Where I can love you for lengths and buy myself sometimes before kissed goodbye. May be there you can just be mine unlike all other times and for the longest time already I have been holding on to you. and does it choke, that I keep you captive In my mind ? May be it does. Or is it just me? Who looks for traces of you in places we went, In things we did, in moments we had And in all those memories that we shared. And aren't goodbyes meant for closure? Or we gotta save it for some other time? So much you left for me for dwell upon, So much you broke and never cared But I dare not to tell you how much it hurts that to watch you leave feeling numb and weak on my knees. In a world of make-believe may be I wanted you to be all real. I wanted my fairytale to last of all the things. The price you made me pay For choosing you over everything, Was just not fair enough, I think days, Straight in a row rebuffed to love and care are the ones I long. Things left undone and words unspoken, are the most beautiful and holds the magic of forever and ever. In the other world where we meet, Your touch so mild and mellow I seek, That could linger on me long after you are gone. Our lips packed under the brightest star gently, You pull me close, your hands all over my maiden lands. You raided the territory I treasured for long. winds in the back sending chills down my spin, there we stand frozen in time like starry-eyed romantics and some old track on repeat. There and then perceived only you can be the symphony to the humdrum of my life, the calm to my soul, the sea to my thirst and shall penetrate to my quintessence. My body for the only time belonged to where it should have and that is when, my psyche couldn't refute no more your lips against mine as as one in millennium thing and all I wanted to be my last first kiss.
@raika put forward the question which has emerged and died a million times in the heart of many. I felt like putting this here in front of you all too.
'How to not feel you are replaceable'
(A raw one)
The thought of 'one being replaceable' is the one which has been bugging me a lot since the time I saw my close ones side me into the container of 'no more important'. I have myself cried nights thinking that my place can be shifted. The importance one gives to me can be given similarly with the same intensity to someone else. But then I thought that you can never be replaced, it's your role in their life which gets diluted. Sometimes this line which I said doesn't occur like reality because when you see that particular person giving the same amount of importance and the same things they did for you, for someone else you will doubt the 'diluting point'.
First of all, you have to make peace with the fact that everyone in this universe has their links with it. For being replaceable someone has to be totally like you. But the point to understand is that no one can be 100% similar to you. From the way you drink your coffee to the way, you adjust your thoughts. The little things make you irreplaceable.
Second of all, the effect you have on someone or something can never be similar. I can have two important people in my life to whom I always listen to but the way I take in the effect their talks leave on me would still be different. Again little things matter.
Last, of all, take this upon you only. The important people you have in your life would build up a place in your heart where anyone else's presence would never fit. Even if you get to know people which appear similar to them but their presence or absence in you would be something which can't be filled up by someone else.
You are irreplaceable in this universe. The mark you leave on something or someone could never fit with the mark someone else will leave on that particular thing or person.