~Life Life always doesn't mean to have happy ending , Life may have sad endings too . Life always doesn't mean to have a bed of roses , Life may have be torturous too . Life always doesn't mean to have a right person , Life may have wrong person . Life always doesn't mean being colourful , Life may be colourless . Life always doesn't mean happiness , Life may be sad . Life always doesn't mean being loved , Life may be being hated . Life always doesn't mean every moment is good memories , Life may be every moment is bad memories .
~Nervousness Emptiness in my heart , Gulping down the saliva , Sweaty are my hands , Nervousness in my mind , Shaky are my legs , Nights are dark , Wild thoughts are my friends , High are my breathing rate , Worst cases are my thoughts .
. . . Conclusion : Nervousness should be avoided but if it doesn't get avoided . Don't worry you're not the one.There are many my friend .
I was an infinite dot , In this vast world , Trying to find other pieces , In the street kids , Standing in the balcony , Watching glittery stars , Are my other pieces in it ? Or it's still down the earth ? Or I am just dreaming ? About my other pieces , Trying to be someone else , When I did not find my other pieces , As I come across the streets , I feel is it just me who isn't happy for not finding my other pieces , Or it's the street kids who are not looking for anything and finding their joy in between those , Someone is begging for their kid's life , And someone is not bothered about their kid , Someone is busy with their day-to-day life , And someone is asking for a spare of minute , Someone is hiding their pain in their happiness filled eyes , Is it me being sad ? Or the entire world is sadistic in their way ?
Sometimes I want someone Not to hold me , Not to pay my expenses , Not to cry with me , But just understand me, The way I am . Accept me , The way I am . Love me , The way I am . Will I find someone in this vast world ? Can I ? Will I ? Or will it be me ?
Tales of my life Today , after so many decades I feel , I understood that I don't maintain the equation with my mother that a child maintains with their mother.I feel that is why I couldn't tell my mother about my first heartbreak or when the thoughts of suicide surpass my mind when suicide was nothing compared to the pain I felt in my heart. It was not a physical pain but a mental pain so I feel the main cause of suicide, depression is people does not understand another people . I hoped that it should not happen with the coming generations .
Love at first sight is like heaven is on earth , Love at last sight is like earth is on heaven , One sight of your smile made my day , One drop of your hatred couldn't be tolerated, One drop of your love will fill up my lifetime cup , I ain't going to heaven leaving u with all those demons , That dwell in human forms but with a beast heart , I want to cherish you and brace your little faults as your perfection.
In the dark night I feel how I will be , In the midst of all the chaos that , Have been yarning in my head , Then I look upto sky where dark clouds could be seen , And a moon which is fighting every one of them , To be itself in the midst of all nimbostratus clouds , And blessed us with her illumination , Though it's not of her but its glittering sliver lining , Makes me believe that it's of her own .
~Peace Let's be lost in the dark forest , Where no one could find us , And we could find ourself , In the midst of the rhythmic heartbeat of ours , Soothing chirping of birds , And the divine wisdom of God .
~ Silence A word which is mine, The moment of mine , Feeling the best of mine .
~Darkness I fear you a lot , I feel all the souls is coming for me , But I muster all my courage to fight it , But it says,"This is what you get after sunlight."
~Alone I am alone in the world , And I am not besieged by , Someone who fake feelings , Someone who fake words , And I am grateful for it .
Following my dreams , In my worst days , Losing my hope, Going without friends, Going crazy , Stress levels high , Future I have , Built in my dreamy eyes , Parent's dreams , My own dreams , People's hope , Is a cluster of thoughts, Filled in my mind.