Allow me to forget you, and let me once again rant out this pain, until I exhaust myself with the impossible idea of you, staying further away from my grasp, you form another kind of betrayal. My disbelief of your wicked secrets, Locked in by the silence, Perpetuating the manipulation. As if forever destined, to gradually murder me through this emotional abuse that continues. Did you really intend to betray the love that was once spoken into your body? that lifted you up and wrapped you around me so tenderly? Did you intend to lay there breathless an arm curled around her as your thoughts submerged into an ocean of relentless lies you'd speak on your mind? There is no greater agony than bearing these untold stories inside the mind. Those white linen sheets that wrapped our bodies now wrapped a memory of things I did not want to think, of the things that could of been between us two. However, I hope it was worth it in the end Because our beginning was halted to a standstill when you decided to crawl in a bed that was not mine. My knuckles are weak and white now, from holding on too tight, to people who never belonged to me. You can keep the jokes, I don’t laugh at them anymore. You can have my t-shirts, something that probably can still keep you warm. You can also stay happily ever after with her, Since as long as you are safe it keeps my heart in peace. I can promise, it’s no longer a concern of mine... And in return?