You want to cry, and let your emotions go, You want to make your head and heart empty, less heavy, You want to stop smiling, But.., You can't All you can do is to, Control your tears, you're emotions, you're holo voice. You've to act like, as if you're all fine, as if you aren't falling apart. But unfortunately, you can't hold on to it anymore, Tears starts falling down through your cheeks, People around you saw you, they're surprised, they're looking at you as if you've done something wrong, they started asking you, why? Why are you crying? Why do you have to cry? And you wanted to run away from there. You curse yourself to not be strong enough to hold your emotions. You starts finding a place to be alone, away from everyone. So that no one could see how sad you're, so that no one could watch you crying. And scold you for crying without them knowing the reason. And you ended up feeling more miserable.
I'm so proud of myself, I know, I'm strong enough.
So what if, People says you've changed. So what if they says you're far.
Aren't some changes are necessary for oneself, Aren't some changes are good for oneself,
Aren't things that are far are more beautiful, Aren't they are more precious to us, To everyone,
Why do I feel bad, Yes, I'm changed I'm not the person I used to be anymore But why should I be sorry about it I know, What I'm today is someone I admire After suffering so much After so much pain, so much disappointments,
Finally I can say,
I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF. I'M FINE. I'M HAPPY.
So if anyone out there says, You've changed, you seems like a different person. I'm gonna be happy tbh, for my victory. For myself.
Dying hopes, havoc mind, suffering from silence, here I came by, living soul but actually dead, meaningless life trapped to find the meaningful life.
Drowning under the depths of every burden, afraid to fulfill each expectations, with each passing seconds, with each Passing hour, with each Seamless effort, With undying pain, My soul tries to be in love, to be loved, so every inch of my lip starts smiling beautifully again.
I wish I could go somewhere far away find some beautiful Paradise, So I can accomplish my real Dreams, so I can talk to the beautiful stars, Where Happiness override each burden, I could only imagine this destiny, as I can't change my story.
Wikipedia describes a 'lie' as an assertion that is believed to be false, typically used with the purpose of deceiving someone. But sometimes that 'someone' is ourselves. Maybe it's to suppress anxious thoughts or to delude ourselves in order to be happy.