I had a beautiful flower in my tummy, I thought I would be getting a fruit very yummy. He was about to be my identity but, I got cursed by the term 'fertility'. That was a totally strange feeling like, inside me, someone was fighting. I thought he would become a lawyer but, he turned out to be a warrior. My ears are still craving to hear 'mom', I thought I would call him by the name 'My Talking Tom'. I was unknown that one day his body will remain but I would never get him alive, and by the time, I would meet him, he would've gone on a long drive. That time something got dropped and Broked in my stomach, but I didn't hear. He needed help but, that particular time I didn't feel. When I realised, as if my body remained stable and my soul also cried but, I swear with a lot of efforts I tried. Until a while ago, he was alive like a bud of a flower but, not able to fight because had not enough power. He was cute but I didn't know that, was also ready to mute. I am still shocked that either I could not be a good mother or he was not a capable son. Might I didn't get this boon to be a mother and don't wanna try for this any further, because I can't suffer by this grief and pain, it's like a havoc has stuck my heart. I can't bear the pain of losing another child of my own and can't take one more curse given by him. This happened because it's all my own sin. Sorry, my baby I didn't let you win.
There was a couple of husband and wife named Amar and Aastha, lived in a village...was a rich family had a great property, but orthodox. He didn't want a girl child. He wanted a son to take care of his property. He said clearly to his wife that he don't want a girl. He will accept only a boy. After some time , his wife gave birth to a girl child named Sita. He didn't want a daughter so he got angry and beated his wife like anything. He tried again to have a boy but again she gave birth to a girl named disha and he blasted on his wife , so sent her to her paternal home. After 6 months he again desired for a boy and went to her home to bring her back...they tried and the result was Avni his third daughter. He kicked her out of the house with her daughters. Aastha shifted at her father's house only. Years later, she got paralyzed by legs and day by day her parents were getting aged. In that crutial situation also nobody was giving any kinda job to her daughters. She was helpless to feed her children...After some time her daughters got an offer to go for the work of prostitution to get some money and they agreed without mother's permission. They started going to brothel and had a good income source for their family. One day their Amar went to that brothel and saw his daughters doing this kinda work, he started abusing their mother by saying that she is also a prostitute and you all are making her proud to do this work. He caught their hair and dragged them to his wife, Aastha's house. He saw his wife crying on the death of her parents. He said all this thing to his wife and gone. Then also they used to went there secretly from their mother to earn money. One day their mother made Sita an disha married in a same house. Sita got pregnant and her husband died after 4 months of her pregnancy and disha's husband was an alcoholic person so she divorced him. After few months first one got a tag for being a mother of twin baby girls. It was hard to run the house for those ladies but Avni was continuing with the job of prostitution..After some time her mother thought to arrange a marriage of Avni because day by day she was getting wrinkled and what to say about her weak bones...so she agreed to get married. Her sisters chose a bridegroom for Avni and she got married. Her sisters didn't know, that guy was the son of their father's friend. Avni was very sad in her in-laws. Because they used to beat her , tease her, the only one who respected her in that house was her younger brother in-law named Siddharth. He tried a lot to protect Avni from his family doing this misbehave. She didn't know when they both fell in love with each other. One day Avni's husband got fully dunked and that night he misbehaved with all his anger at his wife. Amar had filled her husband's ear and sent him to do that. Because according to her father to have a girl in house is a matter of taint on the whole family and his wife also insulted him in front of the society by giving birth to three daughters. That's why their father wanted to break also the house of his daughter Avni . She was upset and mentally disturbed by seeing all this situation. One day her mother in law told her son that she want to become a grandmaa of a grandson and he forced his wife while she was not prepared and not wanted a child...Avni had a miscarriage after eight months of her pregnancy. That time she was totally heartbroken and had a grief of losing her baby, she was suffering from anxiety disorders and depression. One night she sat at the window of the room and cried a lot, and felt like her whole family is been cursed and literally being a girl is a curse. Due to some mental disorders, she picked up a knife and killed her husband, immediately got breathless, started crying and ran from there with the clothes dripping sweat..went to her father's house and killed him too......that time, ...silence all around.... peace all around.... satisfaction all around.... She felt like she is getting free from a prison bond.....relaxed. After some time Siddharth accepted Avni as his wife. Finally, she stood up for her family and gone in an another city for getting settled with her family and husband. Her husband supported and made her literate..she started doing a job in a school. She also fed her both sisters and the twin baby girls of her sister Sita, and made them able. It was a happy family. After sometime she also gave birth to a babygirl. Her husband was so happy to had a girl and they used to call her by the name of Esha...they gave her a well upbringing and made her an independent bird. Esha got highly literate and started managing the business of her father. She married with the person whom she liked and made her parents proud grandparents of a baby boy ..they risen above all the evils of their past ,that day the mentality of the people had been changed, and her mother Avni.. uprooted the so called curse of that family.
Hey!my dad can't describe you in words, by the way my everyday is yours but the people have made this day in the name of father's day. So few words for you because I enjoy writing something for you you. First of all don't leave my hand ever hold it as you did and stop being tensed about me. Because whenever I see you in tension I also got tensed nd whenever I ask you always say nothing but never says the truth ...whenever I am being tensed or depressed you are the only person who ask me not once but hundred times nd if I say nothing, at that time then omg! your stubborn about knowing my problem ..hhuuhh! But always thank you for being this much frank and a guide to me papa❤ now I have caught the basic mantra also that you have given me ..haha! first one is awesome that's having some patience and the second one or the most interesting mantra 'Om ignoray namah' seriously paa this is soo useful. Sometimes I just look at you and learn the way to live and many times you tell me your stories and teach me that this is the way to maintain your reputation, this is the way to live life, this is the way to talk to people and I always say that papa doesn't have anything other than these frustrating topics so please stop this. The very first time I heard this from my teacher she told me that you are so beautiful and your features do match with your father, I felt so proud and happy at that time. I remember well in the winter days in which mumma used to wake me up early in the morning to let me bathe and after coming out of the bathroom, at the time of getting ready for the school, I used to shout in the cold and you used to catch me in your blanket with love. mumma used to shout at you and me that the blanket would get dirty and wet.The way you used to ask me who made you cry is literally awesome and I used to laugh at that time even if I'm not in the mood to..the way you are is the best and stay the same forever you always tell me whoever bothers you just go and hit, I'll see what happens the next. Thank you so much papa for being a best partner in playing cards and teaching me the best signals to tell you for selecting the colour. I remember that day when I called you pops and you said please don't call me by this name because I can't feel the emotions and the feeling that I feel in the word 'papa' or 'paa' .So papa thank you so much for always being a best companion, thank you very much for always been my side. Best are these days in which we are enjoying bhajans of Krishna Das and stand up comedies together. Oh damn !that day was hilarious when you didn't shave and came to my school and my friend asked me...who is he and I said he is my grandpaa then I came home and started shouting..papa please shave please shave then you asked what happened I said you are an old man and you don't look like my father everyone's father is well shaved and you are not and you started staring at me and said what! what are you saying I am not an old, I'm the youngest father in front of all fathers of your classmates and I replied no you are not at all young and suddenly Bhai came to me and said.. do you know I am 6 years elder than you and just now what you said to paa.. I replied don't try to take his favour and you immediately shaved and came to me and asked now look at me and say I'm young or not?..i replied yess now you are looking like my father then you said that again I'll come to your school without shaving ..I shouted and said I'll never accept you as my father ..I'll tell everyone that you are my neighbour or my grandpaa...that time you all laughed at me and said she can't understand, I was in second standard at that time haha! But now I think you look more handsome in your beard look and are the most youngest father and I feel so glad and proud to be daughter of a person like you❤ . Thank you so much for being a best partner to my beautiful mum and made me known to this world .That day was too cool when I got selected as a finalist in my modeling contest I came to you and said ..paa I got selected..I remember that hug you gave me that time, was one of the best hug ever got from you ,I felt from the core of my heart that how happy you were at that time ,may god bless you to be happy forever. So, knock knock! to my first love with the information that I'll never let you down ever and will definitely make a great stand to your dream and make you feel proud. The best thing in you is your patience.. oh my goodness I am speechless about your patience level you always taught me to keep it but it's impossible to have this much patience that you are having. Everyone says that I am so smart and sharp because you made me like this, you taught me what to do at every moment , at every difficulty and now everyone in our family has given me this credit that I am fit in today's generation.. thank you so much for making me such an able and strong girl that I faced and replied to a person like rudra. Love you so much my life to the moon and back.. yess ..a reminder to you that you promised me to teach car driving after my 12th standard so I am waiting for that and now what to say about you there are so many best moments that I have spent with you if I say anything further the whole book would be filled.. don't have words for you and your determination yess papa I'm your nautanki but "teri laadki me chhodungi na tera haath"❤.